Dolus

Finished this editing run.  Now I need to boost the word count by about 10,000.  None of it can be filler, so I'm gonna sit with my cork board and index cards and see what kind of wrenches I can toss in.

I'm still a little driven to work on Stars Collide in the meantime, but somehow I think I'll get lost in that work.  I guess I'll see how long I'm starting at the Dolus plot without any progress before touching it.

I have to admit, the closer the Conference gets, the more nervous I am.  To the point of believing I'll fail no matter what.  I've taken to listing not only what I can do to improve my work, but also why I shouldn't loose my confidence.  Putting this into the hands of fate is very difficult.  If it's meant to happen, it'll happen.  I worked hard on the manuscript and I'm always looking for a way to improve.  Somehow, I don't think it'll be enough.  Too bad we can't predict the future in a very clear manner. (I have belief that a good tarot card reader can see elements of a future, but not well enough to say clearly what will happen.)

Enough of this.  I'll approach the agent no matter what and she promised me a second chance.  Either she'll like it or she won't.  And she'll make helpful comments.  She's not the only agent out there.  It's not like I'll have her answer before August anyway.  No more thinking 'what if…'  I'm letting it go.  Trying to.  Usually I love my imagination, but it really sucks in this instance.

On a happy note, my short story 'The Race' will be published and in my hands the day of the Conference.  I'll hold onto that.

Stress: Ugh!

I haven't gotten my manuscript from Jeremy.  I'm still a bit worried about that, but he didn't work today for me to ask him about it.

Mr. Huey says I need to work on characterization and the setting for the first chapter, despite many people saying I don't need to describe the coffee shop in detail.  It's one of the wonderful things about writing.  There's not a right answer in this situation and I don't know where to go with it, but he gave me something to think about.  I think my target audience won't need description and other audiences will.  Maybe it's best to wait until I have an agent or publisher to make any changes – or rather revert to sections of a previous version with description.

Raven seemed to like what I had for her today.  I gave her a present.  Due to her lack of knowledge in formatting and her poor spelling skills, I typed up all her current work on her novel during the week, printed it out yesterday, and wrote my comments there.  Today, I transferred it to her computer.  My advice was to first finish her rewrites on the original draft, then to look at my comments and incorporate them.  I also told her to take one big comment at a time so she's not overwhelmed.  When a friend of mine from college saw the first page, he made the sign of the cross at her and blessed her.  It's like I told both of them: I wouldn't have put so much work into her novel if I didn't think it was worth investing in.  She's got two weeks before I'm back at Books.  I hope she makes good progress.  She also asked me to look at a sort of short story and make comments.

I like this new social thing I have going on.  Well, at least on Saturdays.

Adventures in Beta Reading: 4

Gave AJ a copy of The Legacy and got his number.  Mr. Huey's read one paragraph and likes it so far.  LOL.

I also agreed to help a new friend, Raven, with a novel.  She's 17 and dyslexic.  Most people told her she wouldn't go as far as she did.  I've only read the first page, but it looks like she has a lot of potential despite the work she needs to improve.  I only hope I can lead her down the right path.

Adventures in Beta Reading: 3

Spoke with Jeremy at Books.  He says he's done with The Legacy and will bring it first chance he gets.  Or remembers to bring it to work with him.  I gave him my phone number so he can call when it's there and I can make a trip out to pick it up.  He's also been accepted into the Marines and will be leaving on February 1^st.  I gave him permission to give it to Mr. Huey, who I trust to return it to me, and I hope this works out.  Or am I being paranoid about his intentions?  He could be honestly forgetting.

I also gave Mr. H an electronic copy of The Legacy.